A Silly Memory

Haha..now i'm on the way back home after i spent more than a half day @office today.

Just becuz i saw an empty seat next to me,now i remember bout d'silly things mostly i did couple years ago when i was taking an English course.

U know wad..Mostly everyday i always hoped or even pray there wud b an empty chair next to me on that time..

Sounds so silly ryt?

Actually i always did that just becuz i wish my lovely prince (i said so becuz he really look like a prince in fairy tales..He's too perfect to b loved) wud sat next to me on that empty chair..that's y i always hoped that..

Didnt know how it work??Cuz thanked God all my wishes came true..which were he always sat next to me on that empty chair though mostly he came late to the class since he had a lot of assignments to be completed @school cuz he's on the last grade in Senior High..That's y he always came to the class in a rush though he knew it didnt help him a lot since i knew he neva came on time to the English Course's class..

Nice just for a time i laughed at him when i saw him speechless after he cudnt give any gud reason to the teacher when they asked him bout why he often came late to the class..

Now seems that's so silly to be remembered..since he'd neva loved me as i loved him so before finally i found my trully prince in my life now..

Maybe me n my dreamy prince's story is too silly to be told..but honestly it's quite sweet for becoming a part of my old memories..

Loving but Hurting

Million times i've been telling u that i love u..
But dunno how there're maybe hundred times i hurt u n ur feeling there

I'm fed up with my self
How cud i still say that word while i'm still hurting ur heart?

How cud i say that u'd hurted my heart while i'm still hurting urs for sometimes though i said those r coincidentally?

Dont u feel upset n disappointed to me?

Now i dunno wad i've to say or even to do to u..

There're too many mistaken i've been doing to u..
Maybe i'm not an angel for u..but seems i look much horrible than a devil now..

So,
Wad wud u do if i say 1 more SORRY after million times i said so to u?
Wont u think it wud b useless for me??
Or..
Wont u think that i'm playing with ur heart feeling now??

Goshhh..
I even think that word becum so meaningless for me..since i've made up for million times to u..

Feels like a jerk..cuz feels like i'm d'silly one who just can say that only word in all my life..
- I'm sorry..
- So sorry..
- Please forgimme
- sorry for hurting u
- i'm sorry for my other mistaken
- Wud u forgimme?
- i didnt mean to hurt u..So sorry
n etc plus bla..bla..bla..for my other types of Sorry word till i think maybe it's so meaningless for him to b heard

N now..
I'm totally dunno wad im gonna do..speechless..so silent w.o. no word can say beside SORRY..

Loving u..but i'm totally hurting u..

Am i deserve for having ur love??
Or betta i run away n hide till u cant find me anymo??

I love u..but honestly i dun wanna hurt u anymo..cuz i'm totally love u..wadeva it takes n no matter wad people said bout u..
"I Love U..Wo Ai Ni..Ik Hou Van Jou..Ai Shi Teru..Aku Cinta Kamu.."
N becuz of u, i feel deserve to continue my new life here..