Loving but Hurting

Million times i've been telling u that i love u..
But dunno how there're maybe hundred times i hurt u n ur feeling there

I'm fed up with my self
How cud i still say that word while i'm still hurting ur heart?

How cud i say that u'd hurted my heart while i'm still hurting urs for sometimes though i said those r coincidentally?

Dont u feel upset n disappointed to me?

Now i dunno wad i've to say or even to do to u..

There're too many mistaken i've been doing to u..
Maybe i'm not an angel for u..but seems i look much horrible than a devil now..

So,
Wad wud u do if i say 1 more SORRY after million times i said so to u?
Wont u think it wud b useless for me??
Or..
Wont u think that i'm playing with ur heart feeling now??

Goshhh..
I even think that word becum so meaningless for me..since i've made up for million times to u..

Feels like a jerk..cuz feels like i'm d'silly one who just can say that only word in all my life..
- I'm sorry..
- So sorry..
- Please forgimme
- sorry for hurting u
- i'm sorry for my other mistaken
- Wud u forgimme?
- i didnt mean to hurt u..So sorry
n etc plus bla..bla..bla..for my other types of Sorry word till i think maybe it's so meaningless for him to b heard

N now..
I'm totally dunno wad im gonna do..speechless..so silent w.o. no word can say beside SORRY..

Loving u..but i'm totally hurting u..

Am i deserve for having ur love??
Or betta i run away n hide till u cant find me anymo??

I love u..but honestly i dun wanna hurt u anymo..cuz i'm totally love u..wadeva it takes n no matter wad people said bout u..
"I Love U..Wo Ai Ni..Ik Hou Van Jou..Ai Shi Teru..Aku Cinta Kamu.."
N becuz of u, i feel deserve to continue my new life here..